Keeping my balance

Goodbye February, Hello March! 

I enjoy March for some pretty obvious reasons: my birthday, official first day of spring, warm weather, march madness. Daylight Savings Time can get lost, though. I'm glad February is over. How did you spend your leap day? I didn't do anything exciting but after watching all our favorite shows, I feel like I was supposed to use the extra day in a fun way! Next time, I guess. 

Usually, it is MW who reminds me that I'm slacking on my blogging duties. This time, however, it was my own mother. I know, I'm embarrassed to admit it. But I'm happy that she checks regularly enough to know there hasn't been a post recently!

Since my last post, I've been quite successful in my no-sugar diet. I admit to eating sweets 3 times during the whole experiment. I'm actually surprised I was able to hold out when times were tough. Especially since this time has included Valentine's day, for which my dad always sends me and my sister the Godiva Valentine's day bear complete with chocolate. I haven't touched a single one! I'm starting my 9th week and it's only been getting easier. From what I read, most people get over cravings during week 3 or 4, but honestly, I didn't stop craving until week 6 or 7. It took a long time, ya'll. I was that enmeshed with sugar. For the first 6 weeks, I would crave it during stressful days (which there have been), rainy days, tired days and almost everyday at 3pm. It got rough at times. But I pulled through with  hot tea, fruit, and other tactics I found useful. 

As I near the end of the trial (which I extended by 2 weeks) -and my birthday- I've been thinking about how I want to continue this and in what fashion. I recently decided that I would have a sweet treat for my birthday and took some time to figure out what I wanted. A local truffle shop opened in April of last year and I've never had a chance to make it there. I thought, if I'm going to break my sugar-free streak I want it to be on something out of this world delicious and positively decadent. What better way than truffles? So this Friday, I will be heading over to Haute Chocolate to pick a truffle for my birthday treat after work. I've already decided to make salmon for dinner, so the whole evening will be savory and wonderful!

Afterwards, however, I plan to continue being mostly (refined) sugar-free. I am going to add some honey in as a natural sweetener, though now most foods taste naturally sweet. But also because the granola bars I make are nice to have when I'm out and about and in need of energy reserves and they use honey to glue them together. I also plan to partake in small amounts of ice cream (since I love it) but desserts will mainly be for special occasions. I still won't be mindlessly eating chocolate at the office. I may decide to tweak this later, and either add or subtract more sugary foods, but for the most part I've felt great. I have fewer headaches and less shaky moments of low blood sugar. I eat regularly and fill up on veggies and fruit and whole grains, just as I think we were meant to. Like I said, this year is about balance, and I plan to use that as a guide as I eat. 

Speaking of eating, check out these awesome lunch boxes I got for MW and myself:

They have two 1-cup containers and an ice pack, with extra space on top (or bottom, depending where you put the small containers). Last week I started meal planning, and these little buggers made it extra simple. Each night I would pack our super fresh and healthy lunches. This particular day we had a turkey, veggie, hummus wrap; salt and vinegar chips; grapes and almonds; and veggie sticks with hummus. I'm a hungry girl, so I always include a morning and afternoon snack. I'd rather eat a little bit often than a large amount two or three times a day. 

One day for lunch, I made Sweet Potato Quinoa Cakes, which were great for packing. I found the recipe  here on a blog I enjoy reading. They're an awesome vegetarian meal and are extremely tasty. I froze the extras, wrapping each individually. 

One night I ate them plain with some apple slices, but the next day I took one to work on a bed of spinach. It was perfect!

Zoe continues to adapt to our new little family. She chases Gus all over the house, he hasn't slept so well since he was a kitten! She also continues to wake up at 5am and demand food by chasing our feet in the blankets. 

They've been pretty lazy beans this weekend. 

Last weekend we had the opportunity to go visit our friend Joseph and new baby Jobi and feed them for a night. Unfortunately, Miranda was sick and we're sad we missed out on time with her. But now we'll have to go back and feed her as well. 

Joseph lives near a goat farm and I want to steal them (and give one to Miranda). But he says they aren't milk goats, they are eating goats and I don't like that. This one has a wee baby underneath drinking milk!

Baby Jobi and dad!! 

I just love his dinosaur outfit. 

Joseph had been taking care of Jobi for a few days solo, so I was happy to step in and give him a reprieve, including one free diaper change. I love babies, so I was thrilled to have a whole day with one. 

We took our pasta maker and made Joseph a double batch of spaghetti. 

...then we ate some. 

Porter was happy to get the pieces that fell

We love visiting Joseph and Miranda. Theirs is pretty much the life we want to live someday. Joseph has chickens that we visited when they were itty bitty guys roaming around. Or, I guess they're mostly girls.

These are from last fall when we first saw them. 

This is the mack daddy of the coup

Porter thinks he is a chicken

MW feeds some hungry ladies

Miranda with a chickadee, precious.

Now they're all big and grown and laying eggs. Delicious, fresh, nutrient rich eggs.

Check these guys out!! Luckily for us, Joseph likes us enough to provide a generous stream of fresh eggs. 

You don't get eggs with yolks this rich from the store. 

They make for a super tasty breakfast, like the one MW cooked me this morning:

Thanks Joseph and Miranda!

Balance: or, Why I'm Not Eating Sugar

This year I'm doing a balancing act.
It's my one resolution for the year:

Find My Balance

It's so much simpler than my standard resolutions of "go to the gym everyday" or "don't say anything negative." Because we both know those won't happen. I mean, it's okay to admit it. 
I embrace my flaws. 

 I am happiest when I feel balanced. So, this year I seek to find the balance both internally and externally that suits me and my life. I've already been jotting down in my journal the ways I hope to achieve this, but plan to add more as I go. It's a trial and error sort of thing. But I'm not allowing myself to feel stressed about it. That would throw me off balance.

At the moment, I'm working on a few different things to find a balance that works for me. But the main thing I'm focusing on is sugar. 

If you know me, you know I have a tremendous sweet tooth. Chocolate is my drug of choice. But I'll also (happily) settle for cake, cookies, ice cream and anything else with the main ingredient of sugar. Lately, I've recently been reading about the dangers of being "skinny fat," or having a normal BMI but a large percentage of body fat. Although I'm petite with a normal BMI, my body fat is elevated (as is my cholesterol). The majority of my excess fat is stored (like most women) around my core. The problem is, fat stored in the stomach is both subcutaneous (under the skin) and, more dangerously, visceral (around your organs). Visceral fat dramatically increases your risk for cardiovascular disease, diabetes, and stroke. Since MW and I eat pretty healthily, it was obvious that my culprit was my habit of sugary treats.

I started reading about the way our bodies react to sugar. There are a number of authors writing about the topic, so if you're looking to read into it you can check out David Gillespie's Sweet Poison. There was also a NY Times article titled (and found here) Is Sugar Toxic? There are also plenty of diet books out there, but the article and excerpts I've read from Sweet Poison have done a great job of explaining our bodies on sugar. I've also been following an Aussie blogger and ebook author named Sarah Wilson, who quit sugar after having several prolonged health problems.

Due to the previously limited supply of sugar (as an energy source) to our ancestors, it seems that we have no "cut off" valve for our sugar cravings. Unlike with fat, we can gorge ourselves silly on dessert. Ever wonder how you can still fit in that chocolate after a full meal? We're hardwired to do it. But now that we're no longer running from large predators and hunting our food, we don't need to immediately use that energy, so it gets stored. It's becoming more apparent that the sugar storage occurs largely around our organs, as we see sugar intake increase and higher rates of disease and illness associated with visceral fat.

The American Heart Association recently estimated that the average American eats 22 teaspoons (or 355 calories) of sugar every day. Teens are eating nearly 34 teaspoons. The daily recommendation is no more than 6 teaspoons! Honestly, I think 22 is a low estimate, considering the amount of fast food we're eating, condiments we're using, and gigantic drinks we're slurping.  It's appalling, really, to think about how much sugar you are ingesting (often unknowingly) in a day.

Initially, I cut out "obvious sweets." No brownies or candy bars or after dinner ice cream. It was definitely harder than I expected. I work in an office where there is an endless supply of sweet treats, especially when we have baby/bridal/going away showers on the regular. I admit that I sat on our couch one night for a full hour thinking about how badly I wanted a bowl of ice cream. Eventually I caved. And I savored. And then the next day I went back to trying, without being mad at myself for giving in. And yes, it was worth it.

Now I'm on my fourth week and although it's getting easier, I still get cravings (especially during my mid day slump, or on slow, rainy, groggy days like today). But I'm continuing to educate myself about the amount of sugar in our foods and continuing to cut back. Although we try to eat a lot of fresh produce, lean meats, and whole grains, sugar seems to slip its way into the pantry in surprising ways. I'm much more cognizant of the sugar content before I buy food. I've stopped eating cereals because they have so much sugar. It's hard to find sandwich bread with an acceptable amount of sugar (I'm aiming for products with 4-6g of sugar per 100g, or less if possible), which is hard since I typically pack a sandwich for lunch.

I'm (loosely) following a Quit Sugar plan from Sarah Wilson's ebook merely as a guide for my own sugar free journey. It helps to know the tips that worked for someone else. Unlike Sarah's plan, I am continuing to eat fruit (which does have fructose). I don't think we should go so far as to completely eliminate a plant from our diet, but I have pared myself down to 2 servings a day. Normally, I could (and would) eat 3-5 servings a day without thinking twice. Fruit was my healthy candy- a way to eat sweets without feeling guilty. So instead, I'm using it as a way to add a little flavor to oatmeal and yogurt, or have a small 'sweet' with my lunch, so the craving won't hit later and beg me to visit the vending machine. I've also found that drinking tea has helped my cravings. Thanks to Mama MW and sisters, I have plenty to keep me balanced and have started keeping some at work for times when the snack room beckons me.

I feel the need to confess, however, that I am continuing to drink beer. Since craft beers are an immensely enjoyable part of our lives, I've left them in (I usually only drink one anyway). If I later decide to eliminate them, then I will certainly do so. But for now I'm content and balanced with leaving them in my diet. 

I'm more than happy to keep you updated on how it's going. I'm interested in trying some sugar free recipes (including a chocolate coconut ball recipe I recently found!). You may think I'm crazy, but honestly I've noticed differences in my energy levels. Instead of spiking and dropping, I'm pretty even keeled. I've been able to wake up at 5am three days a week to go running without much difficulty and am even starting to wake early on non-running days, before my alarm goes off. I previously had moments where I started getting shaky and weak combined with heart palpitations that I usually blamed on going too long without food. But it would happen after 3 hours, and eating sugar immediately helped. Now I eat at regular intervals, and I don't hesitate to have a balanced (sugar free) snack later in the day if I start to feel hungry, but I rarely feel as sick as I did before.